Today, i went to Chinatown point in the afternoon to with my parents eat lunch and to change currencies cause nxt wk i am gg to KL le! After Chinatown point, we headed to vivo city as usual my fav place to go even though i don't do shopping there n it is so far frm my hse. I oso dunno why i will have the urge to keep gg there again n again without having that kind of sianx feelings. I just have a very special feelings there. Weird me!
Oh yeah... when in the bus coming back home, i get pissed off lorx. There is a small boy sitting in front of me keep staring at me! I just hate ppl looking at me cause i will feel very awkward. Furthermore after the boy alight, a small girl with her mother sitting beside me keep touching my hand and keep putting her legs on my thigh. Argh... i feel so irritated but luckily they stayed in the bus not long. Pheww... or else i would be have high blood pressure. Can't stand them although i am sitting. Hahas... jkjk
This few days i had been thinking n thinking a lot. I realised i had totally changed into another person since sec 3. I was wondering what happened to me or what caused me to change so much. I still can't find the ans but i lyk what i am now. However, some ppl just say me 'Tile', 'Proud' or whatsoever just because i did not talked to them. Sigh... perhaps i really dun understand how they feel towards me and i oso dun wan or feel lyk knowing at all because i dun wan to get back to my old path by being over-sensitive abt what ppl thinks abt me.
I knew everytink was my fault! I am the cause of it! But pls ppl if i get quiet, it is because i am thinking of somethink or i am sad. I will try to mend that but u must give me sometime to adjust cause my life had been in the dark for more than 6 yrs! Nobody knows and nobody understands abt it and i had been bottling up all my bad times in my heart.
Yes it hurts a lot. Ppl said that if u have any problems u can tell anybody. I tried in the end what i get was a quarrel between my friends and till now he hasn't talked to me at all. See how serious is the matter therefore i promise myself not to believe i anyone but yourself. All i want now is to study hard for my 'o' lvls and not think of anythink else. I am trying my best not to think to much alreadi. So if i may appear quiet or if i was lyk ignoring u, pls ti liang me. Thanks!
Tell u guy, i had been happy for the past few days cause i had made a great improvement in myself after last few mths of suffering but lately i had been hearing ppl saying me behind my back which spolits my mood completely. Dun ask me how i know but the wall has ears they can listen to each and every single thing u said. This few days, I will suddenly stare into a blank space and my whole mind is blank. I dun even know what i am doing. Haiz... sadded me!
