Finally, i found my new life. Why did ppl wan to destroy it? Haiz... okies i admit i was anti-social. Is that a prob with that? Lyk this oso cannot lyk tat oso cannot. I really had no idea what they wan me to do. Go back to the old times of me? I really really had no idea how to oso? Great now due to my action, ppl start laughing at me being anti-social or do not have friends etc. Is that really really wrong? I do not know.

I just realised something. I had been shutting ppl out of my life making ppl misunderstand me! I am not proud n i am not the kind wanting to mix around with clever ppl. Is because i really do not have things to talk to u! What qualities or things that i am proud of? Money? Beauty? Results? School? Please lorx in the first place i dun even accept myself for what am i now. I am poor, do not have any looks, my results are bad and my sch is not a gd sch! Now happy?

Life is really sickening man. U do this cannot, u do other thing oso cannot. I really dun understand. Probably this whole thing is my creation which causes ppl to misunderstood n trying to avoid me! All this things is one sided bahs. I realised that all the things that i do is just to create disaster in me AND i am actually ruining my own life. Ppl that i truely believe or truely trust now turn back to shoot at me.

I really hate humans! They are the only ones which causes trouble for me! Sobs... Now all i want n everybody one is see back my old self. How??? How is it possible? It is really quite hard to accept the fact. I am now suspending in mid-air and had no idea what to do next, even if i want to step the nxt step, i am hesitant and scared cause i am afraid of making the wrong choice again!

Now, I only can say i am Stupid, Arrogant & anti-social. That is what ppl think abt me! I hate myself even more than anyone else! How much i hope that i am not brought up into this world. T.T

Humans are just so xian shi one. They will do sometink that benefit them no matter what till the extent to hurting others feelings. I do not know whether they know or not but no matter what i will not believe anyone except myself. All i want now is to have the determination and the perserverence to work hard for my o's nxt yr.

Humans used to think that SAP sch are better than neighbourhood sch. Yes! They are better but at the end of the day, we are still taking the same paper. It is not abt the sch however is abt how determined u are to work hard! I am gg to try to prove to ppl that i frm a neighbourhood sch can get gd results too same as SAP sch just that i had to work doubly hard.